The Darkness of my Soul

I can never seem to draw beauty... an eye keen for negativism and realism... 

Nostalgia

God has not promised skies always blue,
Flower-strewn pathways all our lives through.
God has not promised sun without rain,
Joy without sorrow,
Peace with pain

But god has promised strength for the day,
Rest from labor,
Light for the way,
Grace for the trails,
Help from above
Unfailing sympathy,
Undying love
Always.


I wish I understood your efforts then. Time flies. I know I broke my promise. I will try to make an effort ok:)
Even now I'm still quite a unappreciative person. I'm learning.
Hey u make me a better person.
Sorry I treated Ur love and efforts so flippantly.
I'm learning how to love people like you. Know that I'm trying..

in school now

in lab now. i will finish my reports. it's so easy. how difficult can it be....

Struggles

keeping quiet
saying nothing
forgotten
trying not to prick

yet wanting so much
to be seen and heard
remembered
trying not to prick

i will be fine
i will be well
just trying not to dwell

set me free
set me free
from the cage in my heart
locking me

will i be honoured
will i be held up
i want to not impress
but for u to be happy with me

my mind is sick
my mind is needy
Dove
bring change to my heart
u can and only u can
Dove
i know u hear me

Emotional Vomit

left by the wayside
it hurts
u left me there

clinging to what was
it hurts
u left me there

ur patronizing smile
endlessly pricking me
it hurts... again

let me sleep
let me breathe
let me live

it's so good to have peace and quiet

My heart
but a tearing cloth

seeking solace
nothing fits

what have i done to deserve this
what have u done to earn this

dissolving salt
Time passes
it's still there

what have i done to deserve this
what have u done to earn this